Beyond the Mind

 
By this stage in your awakening, you might be going through a dark period in your life. A period of disconnect, and a painful process of meaninglessness. Some people call this Dark Night of the Soul, others call it Ego Death. What it means is that from a young age our mind has built an identity for us, and we have grown up believing that construct to be who we are. Your earthly wants, needs, and of course your likes. Everything that you believed was who you are. You might be a wrestling fan or an Eminem fan, you might like scary movies, or you might be a sales clerk, a lawyer, a doctor, or any thing really. You are a certain gender, you are a mother, father, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, niece, nephew, grand child or grand parent. What ever your mind tells you you are, you believe that's what you all. 

However, during a spiritual awakening, you disconnect from that Construct, and have a deep sense or knowing that you are MORE than what the mind tells you, that you have a true purpose, a calling and you have no idea what that is, because you aren't any of the things you believed you were. 

There is a lot of crying, and there is a lot of nothing. You can barely function, it's almost like you are on Autopilot, and your mind? It has a desperation to find out why. So you are obsessively trying to find a logical answer to why it's happening to you. You look outwardly, and never seem to find a satisfying answer. And depending on who or what triggered your awakening, you may be obsessing and fixated on that as well. Does that sound like something you went through?

As for me, my Spiritual Awakening was triggered by my Twin Flame and I knew inside this was true. I had a deep knowing that there was something different about this person, something other worldly about the connection I felt to them. At the same time, I wanted desperately to be wrong. So, instead of looking for answers as to why it was happening, I was searching for answers that might disprove the connection I felt. 

I have realized that was my fear, a lesson one of my soulmates were showing me when I was 15 years old and didn't get the message. Once I identified it, my fear subsided, because I decided I am no longer allowing it to control my life. That though, came years after my DNOTS, which I was stuck in a loop for many years because there was no information on it back in 2008, when I was triggered. 

In truth though, this was my mind refusing to let go of all it knew me to be. The Ego death, is when your ego, all that you thought you were, starts to dissolve. 

Thing is every human on this earth is made up of a three part construct. Mind, Body, and Spirit. When you have a spiritual awakening, and truly embrace that, the Mind lets go of being you, and becomes the tool it was always meant to be. Allowing your soul to be aware of it's every move, and not let it always look for answers that it can't find. 

By understanding this, we can find balance within.  When you are "Asleep" You are a prisoner of your mind. Your mind tells you all that you are and you believe it. During an Awakening, your soul challenges the mind, and the mind can't let go. Not until you continue to be aware and your mind finally surrenders. 

Have you ever had a thought pop in your head, and you asked yourself where that thought come from? That little voice that questions thought, that is your soul. 

Once you master that, your mind gets quieter, calmer. Thoughts began to process slower, and it becomes more of a tool than pretending to be you. My mind these days, only processes thoughts when I need them. There is a stillness with in, and that helps a lot during meditation, which I always do before bed, and I'm so relaxed when being present, I don't take long to go to sleep at all. Often before the meditation is over. 

It's a sense of peace, and my emotions are the same way, quiet. I can feel them when I WANT to but they do not control who I am anymore. This is because I had identified the triggers in my life that caused these emotions, and faced them. Once in a blue moon, I get a new one. But, now I recognize it and let it go. 

These triggers are past traumas that have happened in your life that you have probably forgotten. However, your store it, and anytime a similar situation arises, those same feelings enter you. You get angry or apprehensive. You suffer from anxiety or deep rooted fear. 

A good example is this, I watched Final Destination 2 in 2003. The log truck scene(as with many people) scared me because it could happen. Now every time I'm behind a log truck, I panic. I'm working on that trigger. But, it generally, the same idea. Say as a child you were bitten by a big dog, and now every time you see any big dog you experience fear, anxiety etc. Eckart Tolle refers to this as the pain body. 

However, there is a way you can make it so this no longer controls you. As long as you can identify it, and let it go. 

The world around us is a simulation, or the Matrix if you will, it's an illusion, that keeps us trapped in a construct, believing you know who you are. However, when we die our bodies disappear, our minds no longer exist, and the only thing left is our soul. 

True Spiritualism is taking what resonates from all, and applying it to your personal journey. No one thing is right, and not everything will resonate. It will depend on what stage of your awakening you are in. You may find that you'll find something that does not resonate right now, but if you go back to it later, it resonates then. It also work's both ways, you might find something that resonates with you now, but when you transcend your teacher, they no longer resonate with you. 

In the beginning stage, to end all that sorrow, you will find that remembering you are a soul, and practicing being present is crucial to your journey. By learning to clear your mind, and finding the space between the thoughts and the words, you will in fact align with your soul. It's only when you find that alignment that you can balance, and find inner peace, true unconditional love, joy, and even God. No matter your "Religion", "Background" or "Beliefs" you will realize that you are a small piece of source itself. Meaning you never really had to find God. God is within every thing that is not man made, he is in nature, animals, rocks, earth, plants, even within you. That's when you learn that you are also connected to everyone and everything around you. This is what Unity is. 

You see, the mind is duality. It can only see that construct. Asking questions to why something is happening, why something resonates with you differently then it does with someone else. Even within this soul tribe, you all "hear" the same thing within Eminem's music, however you resonate with it differently. It will be filled with whys, but when you can ignore those questions and embrace what you know within, you will move forward on your journey. 

It was these thoughts and questions, that curiosity that brought you here, you are now a seeker of truth, trying to understand your spiritual growth and inner wisdom. The mind will continue to search for answers that aren't there, because it cannot be understood at the level of the mind. It's understood on the level of the soul. These answers you are desperately seeking, they are already inside you. Your higher self, your consciousness the observer of thoughts and feelings, the experiencer of the Matrix. 

Right now, you need to align, find the space between the words and and live in the now, by being present and accept what is.

But how? Ah you are still looking for answers, the mind, the ego, the pain body, whatever you wish to call it has trouble letting go. However, by noticing you had that thought, you are already getting there. 
Thing is, you need to go within, and just be. When you look at an animal, they aren't like us, because Animals do not have an ego. They just are, and that's where you need to be. You need to forget everything the construct told you that you are, you need to observe the thoughts you have, and find the space between the words to do that. If you practice this, if you search within you, then the answers come to you in a deep knowing sense, referred to as inner wisdom. 

The mind only sees duality, two in everything. Day and Night, Light and Dark, Good and Evil, You and Me. The soul is different, it's non duality, it only sees one, unity. Everything is connected. When you are one with your soul, you are one with everything else including source.

And what exactly source?

Source is God, I use the word as a universal term, because they are many religions, with many different entities they call God. Therefore by using Source, I'm not saying that only Christianity is right, or only Greek Mythology is right. Because the simple truth whatever entity you refer to as God, it is the same source. When you look at Eminem, he is meant to be a lightworker for humanity, when the divine timing allows him to be. That is once his entire Soul Tribe is fully Awakened and Actively pursuing their purpose. That's you, his core fans. The one's who have either been there from the beginning, or at least those who music resonates on a different level than with the others. You are the ones who have always seen past the controversy and shock value within his songs and have resonated what the songs mean to you. You have heard the call, and now it's time to begin your Spiritual Journey. 

Remember what Eminem said at the end of Stans. That they (the fans) get him because they are him. That is because you are his soul tribe, and have signed soul contracts in the other realm to be awakened by him. 

This is also why "The Great Divide" happened with Revival, where the fan base split off. He was sifting out those who did not truly resonate. The ones that weren't meant to awaken by him. In other words, as he noted himself, he was separating the sheep from the goats. 

The first thing you must do, is align. Remember you are a soul, and practice spirituality. Apply it to every aspect of your daily life. Meditate and do it often, practice mindfulness, gratitude, do journaling, and write to your higher self, as you do. You can also pay attention to mirrored numbers, and another synchronicities, practice Tarot, or at least engage in readings. Allow your spirit guides to guide you. Numerology is also a great tool, to use. Keep in mind most of these are tools designed to guide you. If you do a tarot reading, or engage in a collective reading on YouTube and it resonates with you, claim it but don't fall down the rabbithole of watching multiple readings in one day. Choose one, a great card reader on YouTube is Kali Tarot, and she does do personal readings if you pay. 

I have my own tarot deck, so I do sometimes do readings for guidance. But most times, I watch Kali's readings. For the collective of my personal sign, but also collective all signs readings, especially the week and weekend ahead. 

When I see a mirrored number now, I make a note of it on my phone, and then I write that I seen these numbers, over the course of months. This way I can go back in my journal when something resonates, and figure out what these numbers were saying, because these messages are not immediate, and take time to manifest in the 3D. 



The best way to start your Spiritual Journey, is to watch the first part of the Samadhi movie which is free on YouTube. You can find it here:

This movie helps you understand the simple truth of who you are. 

After you watch that movie, read either The Power of Now, by Eckart Tolle or Untethered Soul by Michael Allan Singer. 

It will also help tremendously if you listen to Conversations with God:  which can be found on YouTube 

This will help you understand, if and when you are ready. So, if something doesn't resonate with you yet, for example some people don't resonate with the Power of Now right away. Set the tool aside, and go back to them later in your journey. Also, even if it does resonate with you, always save these so that you can go back to them later, because you will refer back to them over and over throughout your journey, picking up things that hadn't resonated with you the first few times. Things will change as you progress. 

So, you came here with a curiosity about why Eminem's music resonates for you, why you hear his call. He is your Neo, and he is here to awaken you, so that when you finally reach inner peace, you will be pulled toward your personal purpose. Amazing things start to happen once you embrace your awakening. For starters, you will experience Intuition and Manifesting. There is a good change your twin will appear in your life as well. Because everyone has one, and you share a greater purpose. 

You know within what your purpose is, and once you have reached true inner union, in divine timing, you will be called towards your purpose, and you can't ignore your calling. I have tried when I was running away from my awakening. You always know what your meant to do, I have attempted the same thing many times, because I have known what my purpose was, but the timing wasn't right because I had never truly embraced my awakening, my calling, or my trigger to my awakening. Each time I attempted in the past, I was too afraid and scared to speak my truth. I hid under names, not wanting my identity associated with what I was talking about, believing the old construct, and programs that this topic is taboo, the connect to Eminem is crazy talk, and therefore people will judge me for what I am saying. 

Now?

I just don't give a fuck. 

Because if what I am saying resonates for you, than you are who I am supposed to be guiding towards your awakening. If it doesn't resonate for you, you are either not ready to awaken, or you aren't part of the soul tribe. Because when you are truly part of the soul tribe, you already knew this before you visited this blog, you have felt a strong connection or bond for years, his music speaks to you in ways you don't understand. By coming here, you are finally answering the question why, and if you embrace the connection instead of running from it, you will allow me to guide you on your spiritual awakening, so that you can fully awaken and actively pursue your purpose or mission. 

This is the Matrix, and Eminem is your own personal Neo. His purpose is to wake you up from the Matrix. To remind his soul tribe to who they really are, while I am meant to guide you on your journey, and help you succeed to fully awaken, and do the thing that you came here to do. 

You have to search within you, find your triggers, your coping mechanisms and change the habits and patterns. This truth will set you free, and open more and more doors for you. When you are awake, the possibilities are endless, and you will love every moment of life, and understand the lessons in every tower moment you have. Because you still will have tower moments in your lives, you just won't look at them the same way any more. 

For instance I had a tower moment this past May, when someone close to me was killed. But, instead of letting the tower moment destroy me, I embraced it, and instead of questioning why this happened to me, I was looking for the lesson, this was meant to teach me. 

That is what will happen for you, when you get to the level I'm at right now. Your spiritual journey is unique to you. Everyone experiences different things at different times and at different levels. Do not let anyone talk you into thinking you are not experiencing what they are so you are not awakening. 

Soul Contracts are divided into 10 year cycles. Whatever number you are when you are born, is when those ten year cycles begin. And they, are different stages. For me, 2025 is a 7 which is seeker of truth and inner wisdom. I spent most of the year, growing Spiritually. That included having a tower moment that pushed me to finally embrace my calling with no fears or insecurities. 

When you are able the find the space between thoughts, the space between words you will notice a stillness within you, that will calm you. But once that happens don't stop there. That's a big mistake that makes it so you won't progress. Once you find the space, once you are present, that's the moment you heal. Journal, practice mindfulness activities. Do your mediations and your shadow work. Do this by letting go of the past, and letting go of the future. Just worry about what is happening now. You cannot change your past, but you are shaping your future. If you live in the present moment, all those things will manifest in divine timing.

This is a guide to make the soul tribe aware, and for them to remember you are not your body, you are not your mind. You are the awareness that notices both, you are a soul, connected to everything and everyone that's not man made, including source. 

E Truth is merely a guide to make humanity aware by reminding them who they truly are. 

Great leaders including Jesus have spoke of this self, this soul. All you have to do is remember, that you are a soul, pure consciousness that is aware of the mind and the body. This spiritualism will help you reach Unity, Universal Love and Enlightenment. You can start your journey right now, by remembering this and accepting what is.